
What I've learned this past month
I suppose I mainly spent my month learning a lot about being a mom. The most important thing I've learned is that parenthood can be extremely difficult and sometimes you just need to talk to someone who can listen, and listen well. I found myself completely desperate and in tears after a week of struggling to get her to fall asleep, only to have her wake up 20 minutes later. I'm seriously lacking support here, and it meant a lot to me to have my friends and family back home encouraging me and telling me, "you're doing just fine. Trust yourself. This is temporary. We're here for you."

If you feel strongly about something, stick to your guns. Follow your intuition. There will always be someone, a friend even, who will tell you that what you are doing is "wrong." Hailey said it best when she said, "there is no RIGHT way in parenting. " It's good to be open to helpful ideas and some moms are really good about sharing ideas, but avoiding unsolicited advice. Most people appreciate helpful ideas that start like, "Have you tried.." or, "I did... when Jebediah was just a lad" It's much nicer than hearing, "You need to..." or "Why are you doing that" or, "What THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING?!!" (Ok, no one has ever used that last remark, but sometimes tone of voice and expression speak louder than words.)

The last thing I've learned is that after a terribly long week of failing miserably what you really need is someone to say to you, "Go have some time for yourself. I'll watch the baby for a couple hours." AAAAHHH! Heaven.